You Are What You Eat

Psalm 139: 13-18

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand- when I awake, I am still with you."

How beautiful these words are and how off guard did they took me... 

As a team, we try to have team devos at least once a week and we each take turns leading them. This past week, Chris shared a study on prayer he had been working on. We looked at several examples throughout the Bible. I happened to read Psalm 139 and I nearly teared up reading those words.

You know the saying, you are what you eat? I believe this applies to more than just food. It applies to what we put inside of us. I'll be honest, I don't always listen to the most "Christian" music. I listen to the radio, I listen to the stupid pop songs by Katy Perry and I've heard "Call Me, Maybe" a time or two. 

I'm not trying to say anything against these artists. But, these songs are not the most edifying. One year during college I took a... let's say... secular music fast. All I listened to was Christian songs... and some of these songs are the cheesiest thing of my life. But, I noticed a change in my attitude. I was more positive, my thoughts were more God-centered and when I walked into stores, that play heaven knows what, I was kind of disgusted. I don't think it's an awful thing to listen to secular music. But, I think we should be good stewards of what we are listening to. 

Now... back to being what you're eating. During training even, we have talked about the times we are the most stressed and the days we are having the worse days... how do you act in those moments? Those are the times our true selves come out. We have reached the point of bubbling over and everything that has been going on inside is going to come out. 

I constantly struggle with insecurities. I struggle with feeling loved by others and accepting that love. Lately, I've been struggling with my identity in God and trusting Him with my future. 

I read out loud, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made." Somehow, that hit me more than it ever has before. Maybe, maybe I've never said those words out loud before. There's power behind words, especially when they are said out loud or in person. I imagine this is partly why people go to confession. The Bible itself says, when we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive them; it's cleansing. 

Something I have thought for a while but have never gotten around to doing is keeping the things God says about me, perhaps in a journal or somewhere I can read them and read them, over and over and over again until it is ingrained in me... I am fearfully and wonderfully made.